Sunday, May 31, 2009

Something to think about

This is a reblog from my Tumblr account (I update there more often) and I just felt like sharing it also here in my blogspot for the sake of sharing and....updating of course :p

mariakatrina said: So yeah. Shame.

asiana said:

FU Hayden Kho. FU senate people taking this seriously instead of the H1N1 virus.

You’d rather blow up and cover (either way) his big stupid pile of mess than stop a virus that could possibly spread more if not prevented soon.

I say this is one idiotic publicity stunt. Sex scandals happen every day, geez. If this were the case, then the senate should make a big deal of every sex scandal caugh on video, no matter how ugly the quality is or how cheap it looks. Paris Hilton’s scandal didn’t reach the US senate when it happened before (mmm, correct me if I’m wrong), so why in the world does our senate think THIS is more important than the H1N1 virus.

Somehow I’m glad I don’t watch the local news anymore since they don’t give out real news anyway.

One Fifth Avenue said:

I am beginning to seriously think about this issue. I think it’s another escapist way of covering the H1N1 outbreak. Yup, that’s how we solve our problems. We bomb malls and review sex tapes. Sobrang nakakawalang pag-asa.

I say:

Very well said people :)

I really agree with this. I mean, why the hell is our dumb Senate people over-reacting (to the most exagge level BTW) with this stupid and idiotic sex scandal issue in the first place anyway? Okay fine, Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili has a sex video scandal, SO THE HELL WHAT?! I mean, haleeeeerrrr it’s not like this is the:


Sure, I don’t really watch the news every single day- I know that’s a bit lame but what’s the point really?- so maybe I’m not really that knowledgeable about this whole stupid matter OR worst, maybe I really don’t know anything about it that's why I don't have any right to talk about it, but when you simply try to understand things with just one look, without overnanalyzing things, everything seems really really really pointless especially when there are helluva LOTS and LOTS of more important situations in our country that needs to be given more attention.

Come on Senate people! Where’s the tiniest shreds of dignity left in you?

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Enrollment day

The enrollment today can only be described by one word: CRAZY.

As the President (ahem) of the class- since I really don’t have any choice- I enrolled 20 people from our class in Section 3. Well actually, the enrollment flow is quite smooth and fine unlike the previous years but what made it crazy is my classmates who are being so demanding and a bit inconsiderate for back-outing the last minute.

But anyway, after all this, what’s important is that I am already enrolled.

Oh my gosh, this got me so nervous already. Senior year, HERE I COME :)

P.S. Spot my new rebonded hair! Yay or Nay? :)

P.S.S. Whoa what a very short post I got here. Well anyway, it's just for the sake of updating really. Will make a decent post SOON. Watch out for that! =)

Saturday, May 23, 2009

My 20th Birthday FTW!

Yes! That’s on MAY 24, 2009. Tomorrow. Sunday.

As much as I would like to be 16 or 17 or 18 forever like Bella or Edward Cullen (hahaha) I know that there is such thing as “reality” and so, like change and dying, I’m pretty much aware that growing a year older is inevitable. Hahaha. So since there’s nothing I can really do about that, I might as well seize the moment and live life as if this would be my last year or last day even!

The whole point in all this is: don’t forget to greet me. Hahaha. Send me your love HERE. Please identify yourselves though if you don’t have a blogspot account so that I would know those nicest people in the planet earth who remembered me on this special day :)

P.S. I will make my bithday update later (dance) I'll be posting it tomorrow. I'm so not in the mood to blog right now so this will do for the mean time. Tamad much? Hahaha. I love you all and thanks in advance! :) :) :)


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Loser much?

In every single update I do for this poor-slash-abandoned-slash-almost-forgotten-blog, the hardest part always (and forever will be, I guess) is how you start it. Arghhh. So how will I start this thing?

Okay, since I have no idea really, let me start it the- Meredith-Grey’s-way: I’m screwed.

So for a quick glimpse of the past… Let me see… It was November of last year since my very last decent post. Haha. Gawd, that was quite a long time! How sad is that huh? So what took me this so long? Well, I have many reasons in mind but I’m not really sure what among all those reasons is the most reasonable. Hahaha. I’m not explaining myself to you guys. I mean what’s the point in doing that right? Don’t mind me, I’m just talking to myself okay? I self-talk a lot, you know. So here’s the point: up to now, I’m still trying to figure things out to myself.

Maybe I was lost again and didn’t know the way back like some castaway. Maybe I was hiding from something or someone. Yes, I guess that’s pretty much it. Hiding from something I’m not ready to face yet─ scared to say or even think what it really is. Refreshing the memories of my Psych 101, my all-time favorite subject, right now I’m using the two of my most frequently used defense mechanism: denial (blocking out or disowning painful thoughts and feelings) and repression (an involuntary, automatic submerging of painful, unpleasant thoughts and feelings into the unconscious). *With matching definitions pa. Oh well. Haha*

Maybe I was fooling myself all this time that everything will be alright and everything will eventually fall into its places when I come back into reality and finally awaken from a very long sleep.

Yes, I was asleep. I couldn’t really say that it was like a journey because it’s not as positive as it may sound. Why? Because all this time that I was in neverland (haha) I felt that my life is wasted and miserable. Everything turning into pieces, everything is… screwed up. I lost my self-esteem. I lost my trust in myself. I lost my faith in what I can do. I lost my passion in doing the things I love like writing. I feel so irresponsible. I’m not being productive as a member of our organization. I feel so worthless. It’s like I’ve lost everything that I’ve worked hard for: the respect of other people and most especially, my self-respect. And to sum it up? I’M SCREWED. Do you have any idea how this feels when you put these altogether? It’s horrible, I tell you.

So yeah, where will I start my life? And where will I end this post by the way?

Screw it, I have no idea. Right now all I can say is this: life goes on. Nada.

Jeez, that was a pretty messed-up start.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Fearless Forecast

Adam Lambert F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!!


Thursday, May 14, 2009


If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning wondering what is what
Don't give up through it all just stand up!

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See you all! Miss you all so much.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Shut up and let me go

There are certain things that I don’t want to, as much as possible, talk about especially with other people BECAUSE they are very painful and I consider those the darkest moments of my life in which I am not proud of. Yes, I am ashamed of the past mistakes and whatever it is that I regret to talk about. Besides, what’s the point right? I want to move on and it wouldn’t help if I’ll be reminded of those mistakes in my life. It wouldn’t be a help at all.

I’m so tired of feeling miserable and tired of those people whose trying to make me feel miserable. I’m so tired of being reminded how a big failure I am. Couldn’t people just leave me alone and let me figure things out myself?

Thursday, May 7, 2009


At exactly 3:00 inside my room on a gloomy and rainy (stormy, rather) Wednesday afternoon, I finally finished Breaking Dawn! Insert dancing banana here.

FINALLY, after somewhat holding back myself from reading books other than my hideous-looking books on Nursing─ Medical Surgical book on the top of my list, of course, a.j.c.a (also jokingly called as) the most accessible and effective sedative there’s no need of a sleeping pill for the insomniacs─ I finally finished the book (Breaking Dawn) that has always been my priority-must-read-book. This vacation seems to be the perfect timing for this─ I thought it seemed inappropriate to call it a summer vacation when there’s a lot of storm approaching. It feels good to finally be given the luxury of time to splurge on leisure readings. Let’s cheers to that!

It’s roughly the second week of my much awaited vacation and since there’s nothing much to do really aside from watching some crappy pirated DVDs with my cousins from Manila who arrived also last week, I’ve settled myself to just read and read and read until there’s no more books to read with the hope of letting me get me through my last week of my vacation (probably my last vacation, I fear so) and now that there’s no more books to read the boredom seems to be taking effect now, killing me piece by piece.

Okay, enough of the drama.

Since thinking about boredom alone is altogether boring already I might as well shrug away from the thought and try think of positive thoughts and find myself of something to do so now I’m here, getting myself into the blogging scene again! Cheers to that! I really really missed blogging. It’s been like forever since my last post and I feel quite bad about it. It’s like I’ve forsaken a very important part of me: my love for writing. I promise myself I will be better. I will make up and keep up.

So anyway, I’ve finished 4 books so far: The Zahir by Paolo Coelho, Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella, There’s no place like here by Cecilia Aher and finally, Breaking Dawn by nonetheless, the genius, Stephenie Meyer. I enjoyed myself reading all these books, I love them all, each one of them equally worth-reading but my fave (I have a favorite, of course) is Confessions of a Shopaholic. It’s a really good book─ Rebecca Bloomwood is the funniest! Cecilia Ahern’s piece is also loved. I really appreciated the story and it’s lesson─ I’ve learned a lot from it. Sandy Shortt, the heroine of the story is so much like me in many ways. Although I found Breaking Dawn a priority, I found it─ as what many others have called it─ the downfall of the Twilight Saga. I don’t know, maybe Twilight has been my rock-solid-favorite-of-all-time among the four books that I didn’t really appreciated the other books that much. I mean, they don’t weigh equally as Twilight, sort of a thing like that. Do I make sense? Haha. I can’t explain, really. Maybe I found the “firsts” the best like for example, Legally Blonde 1, I think, is better than Legally Blonde 2 or the first season of Grey’s Anatomy is my fave of all the seasons, but of course, we all know that all the season of GA’s are one of a kind. OR maybe each one unique as the other─ that explains it, I think. End of the story. Haha. But anyway it feels good to finally finish Breaking Dawn. It just feels good to feel a sense of fulfilment and accomplishment =)

With that I couldn’t be any more thankful for having created literature, if someone created literature that is.

Currently listening to: Longer by Dan Fogelberg. Senti mode.
Mood: Relaxed, ecstatic and a bit bored.

I know you missed me.

Apple (K)