The Backslider

A Girl Raped in Dagupan

A girl went to a party and she ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as A GIRL RAPED IN (your city) if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what "If you deny me in front of your friends, I shall deny you in front of my Father"

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I have read this in the friendster bulletin a while back and I was moved by the thought of the message. I swear, it had touched me so much that it made me cry. It's a chain message (obviously) but I didn't mind because it's the message that I'm after for. I have a soft heart when it comes to things like these you know. Haha. Yeah right. Sorry about that again. Btw, Hannah, a schoolmate in grade school posted it.

Deep, deep sigh. I hate it like this but my memories suddenly comes back..

I was 7 or 8 years old back then when I became a born-again Christian, a very active one. Because I was living with my relatives who were active Christians too, I became deeply involved in Church activities and so at a meager age, I accepted God and slowly, not so long after, my life revolved inside the Church and with God.

I was in 5th grade when I transferred in a Christian school (FYI: I use to transfer schools at lot) and that's the point in my life where I felt closest to God. The foundation of my Christianity grew stronger and stronger. Later, my faith became indestructible, or so I thought.

Looking and comparing myself before and the present, I can say that I am a completely changed person. (Everybody changes right?) What I am now is a whole lot different from my life when I was younger. As a matter of fact, I couldn’t imagine myself now being a downright religious person talking to God everywhere, reading the Bible constantly and memorizing verses on my way home like I was before. Yeah, let me repeat that again, like I was before. LOL. It's nothing really. I just know that these days, that's kinda weird to imagine. Now I am wondering if my classmates back in grade school think I was...weird. Haha. I really think they did. Oh yes, how can I forget? How can I not remember them bullying me after our Wednesday devotions in school, calling me "Banal" and stuffs. (You know who you are. Haha)

With all of that, I could say that I was living an almost perfect Christian living. But that was before.

When my parents got separated, I told God and myself that if He will send a miracle for my Mom and Dad to reconcile, I'll offer my life to Him forever. I was so serious about it that I prayed for it every single night before I sleep, every Wednesdays of our Devotion in school and every Sundays in Church. I prayed hard that they'll be together and we'll have a happy family again and I never failed to include that in my prayers. I have never missed to pray about my Mom and Dad, about our family.

But after 2 years, I gave up. I lost my faith and turned my back to God or in the Christian term, I backslide. A lot of trials and problems came to test my faith and I failed to win over them.

Yes, I loss and now, I am lost. I lost my direction in life. I lost my faith in God. I lost...myself.

But despite all of these, I know that God has never forsaken me all these years. He never did to anyone. I know he has His reasons why he didn't answer my prayer about Mom and Dad. In the right time, eventually, I'll know why.

God has always been there for me. I know in my heart that He’s just waiting for me to come back home but...I think I’m not ready yet. It's been like 10 years since I turned back my faith so it’s not that easy on my part to turn back as well to the mistakes I’ve done and all the wrong decisions that I’ve made. (Oh gosh, it's hard to explain but i do hope you got my point.) A lot of things had happen in the past that I cannot change anymore. It's complicated but I know He'll understand.

I'm not yet prepared and I need more time to think things over.

I just hope it’s not yet too late when that time comes…