Happiness is the keyword

Finals are finally over... and I'm so over it.

Okay, so this will be very quick because I still have to do some editing etc etc. Yeah, my job, my responsibility. Whatever. WTFH. Yay! I'm so f*cked up! My life is such a mess. *sigh* Anyway, negativism aside for the mean time, I'm so overwhelmed with joy at this moment (exagge!) that our final exam- the "judgement day" as what we, nursing students call it- is finally over. I've been sleepless and stressed out and anxious for the past two weeks because of the freakin' exams as manifested by pimples here, there and everywhere (screw the freakin' hormones!) and prominent dark circles under my eyes- yeah, the eyebugs. I super love it.. NOT. It's bull.

Here's a quick evaluation of my exams:

• Cardio- Internal hemorrhage
• F & E- Sisiw! Hahaha :))
• Respiratory- Nosebleed
  
• GI- ANV (anorexia, nausea and vomitting), Slightly complicated
  
• OB- 50-50 Hahaha.
  
• Pedia- Easy as usual :p
  
• Psych- My favorite subject. My forte. Hehehe.
  

Okay so here's the best part of all- I lost my examination permit. It was a minute or two before the exam proper when I went to the comfort room to pee- a strong manefestation of my high anxiety level. I know I know. Bad timing (or can you say worst?). I was in a hurry to the max because I don't want to be left behind with the shading thing (FYI: we do shading during exams and unit tests for every single subject) that's why I was almost running to get to the CR. And the rest is history. I'm 100 to the nth power % sure that I had dropped it somewhere. You just can't imagine how my world turned upside-down when I realized that my examination permit was gone in the wind- the most devastating situation of my life so far. I was crying like hell looking for my permit on my bag and everywhere. It's really a good thing and I'm very very thankful that Mam Nicholas, our proctor, was very kind and understanding enough to let me take the exam (I just showed her my permit) or else... I'm double dead. As in like a double dead meat. Taking a special exam is never an option for us nursing students like me so I'm not exagerrating here. *Sigh* What an awful experience :l With all that I say... SHIT HAPPENS! Whahaha.

The lesson? Never ever ever put your money and your examination permit on your pockets and it's so urgent that you have to run because you really need to have a last trip to the comfort room before the start of the lethal exams. Yeah right!!! When will I ever learn this lesson?

So enough about that super bad experience. The most important thing for me now is that the sem is finally over and the next sem will be another chance to change and improve for the best, to rise up again after that long, painful fall and to learn from the past mistakes. I must admit that this sem was not that good or satisfactory (think: mediocrity), whatever you call it but I promise to myself and to my future (haha) and to my Mom and Dad that I'll make up for it and try harder next time by sparing more of my brain cells and burn more midnight oil. I'll avenge my name this 2nd sem. Itaga nyo yan sa bato! Hahaha.

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MAJOR UPDATE: I'll be going on AFFILIATION on October 13! I'm suuuppeerrr excited about it! [Obvious naman diba? Naka-all caps pa ang word na affiliation. Hahaha.] Only 25 of us were assigned in Sunshine.com, a recovery institution for mental patients. The rest will be in Veterans and NCMH. I'll be telling more about it when we get there in Manila.

Ishna, magkita tayo please! Hahaha. Sa Loyola Heights, QC ang dorm namin, malapit kaba dun? :)

Oh btw, summer duty na namin for NCM 103 on Monday. So hospital duty from Monday-Friday (Oct 6-10) then affiliation on Saturday. Musta naman yun? :c

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A picture in Medical Centrum Dagupan with one of our patient, lolo Adrian. Share ko lang because this pic inspires me a lot. Looking at this picture helped me to become motivated to strive harder this finals. He's one of the nicest and the best patient I have handled so far. I will never forget him :)

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Yay! Ang haba din pala ng post na to'. Hahaha. So I think that's all for now. I badly need a good night sleep tonight. I need to regain my energy after this long, stressful, exhausting day.

Thank you Lord for everything :)

Sweetdreams people!